tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772933038599972944.post4483889153769692517..comments2023-12-07T01:46:47.908-08:00Comments on OCD Reflections: Rough DaysFellow OCD Suffererhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16157849944445411960noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772933038599972944.post-54378452607665665112010-08-23T07:52:02.634-07:002010-08-23T07:52:02.634-07:00I absolutely know what you're talking about! ...I absolutely know what you're talking about! I definitely have bouts of self-loathing on a semi-regular basis. I'll have them more soon when school starts back up. How I handle it completely depends on the situation. Sometimes I don't handle it at all and I shut down, too. I try to avoid getting to that point if possible, because I beat myself up more for shutting down. Once at that point, it's just a downward spiral. If I'm around my boyfriend or best friend, they can usually pull me out of it and distract me from my self-loathing rampage.Elly @ The OCD Chronicleshttp://ocdjourney.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772933038599972944.post-13118802465889989572010-08-20T19:34:57.342-07:002010-08-20T19:34:57.342-07:00Oh, I feel for you! I had some version of "r...Oh, I feel for you! I had some version of "rampant self loathing" today(that's a great way to describe it)--either avoiding doing things, or once I started doing them, not stopping when I was exhausted, and some variant of "What's wrong with you? Why can't you get it together?" settling into my bones all day. It helps me to lower my expectations of instantly turning my day around, and my mood--that kind of pressure makes me feel even worse--I count anything even remotely in the right direction as a "credit."expwomanhttp://exposingocd.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772933038599972944.post-58490313692901673402010-08-20T07:50:02.884-07:002010-08-20T07:50:02.884-07:00I do struggle with this a lot and get mad at mysel...I do struggle with this a lot and get mad at myself when I feel like I should just "move on" and "snap out of it." The thing is, when I get in these funks, it's almost as if I really don't have much control over my mood. When the thoughts are racing and my mood is down, I'm very down. When things get a bit better, I wonder how I could have been so down. I don't really get it, but fighting it often makes it worse. <br /><br />I also struggle with continuing on as normal when this hits, as most days I find it exhausting just to get through "normal" activities much less additional social situations where I feel I have to be "on." There are times getting out there helps get me out of my head, but there are other times that I know I just want to go through the motions and get through the day/night/etc. without too much emotional drainage. <br /><br />I don't know if that helps at all, but I can relate. It's sitting with the anxiety and not trying to find out why, but rather trying to find out how to move on and move past it (without maladaptive coping behaviors.)<br /><br />Have fun on your trip!Abbyhttp://www.abbyhasissues.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.com