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A Return

It's been A LONG time.  In fact, so long that I'm just relieved to see that so many of the wonderful bloggers that were out there before are still around.  I'm grateful to be able to come back to this world and know that it is still here.

My life has drifted away from focusing so much on my OCD (which is good) but I have also drifted away from actively fighting it on a daily basis (which is not so good).  In fact, I've found it's easy to forget how much I'm letting things slip when I am not checking in with a therapist as frequently and when my life is so full of other things.  I've been working up a storm, but in-between, when I'm at home and on the weekends, the problems persist.  I've just gotten really good at working around them.  I want to return to this world, though, and to keep fighting and sharing my stories along the way.  This place has been an invaluable outlet in the past - a forum to relate, share, learn, and feel "normal" in ways I can't elsewhere. 

I've been distracted by so many other wonderful things, but ultimately this is where I want my focus to be - not only because I want to improve myself and my quality of life, but because I still know somewhere inside that I would like to pursue a career path in anxiety disorders.  I've lost sight of that just as I've lost sight of my treatment goals.  It's time to start heading back.

So here I am.
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  1. Pure O CanuckJune 24, 2012 at 11:19 AM

    Welcome back!! It sounds like you've been doing well. Can't wait to read more!

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  2. AbigailJune 24, 2012 at 3:49 PM

    Welcome back! I missed you, but I'm glad you had this time "away" from OCD. Looking forward to reading more.

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  3. AnonymousJune 24, 2012 at 6:38 PM

    I too am struggling a bit with staying on track fighting the OCD since I finished my CBT. It's just really hard to keep forcing yourself to do scary things all the time! Looking forward to hearing more from you.

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  4. I Am Not My OCDJune 26, 2012 at 4:12 AM

    Welcome back! I look forward to reading more from you :)

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  5. expwomanJuly 8, 2012 at 7:32 AM

    Welcome back! I've been wondering how you've been!

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  6. KarinAugust 13, 2012 at 2:49 PM

    Welcome back!

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  7. AnonymousMay 22, 2013 at 4:01 PM

    Your post is almost a year old and I just found it. Your words about recovery and relapse and re-therapy ring very true to me. I fear therapy just as much as my OCD fears themselves. It's is so hard to want to recover because giving in to OCD is so easy and therapy is SO scary. But, I commend you for going back to therapy and taking care of it. I hope you are doing better now. I also know this is a daily war and I hope you stay strong and keep getting stronger. Relapse is not failure...failure is when we believe we no longer need help when we really need it. Of course, easier said than done...all the very best to you!

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