I feel as though I'm having motivational issues right now. I'm avoiding showering. I'm avoiding doing dishes. I dread doing both, and it feels like what's the point? Why bother? I'm preparing to sleep on the floor even though I know I shouldn't. I know it's compulsive. I recognize that. I recognize that I am making an unwise decision from a therapeutic standpoint, and yet, ugh. How to make myself do what needs to be done? I'm still figuring that one out. Still figuring it out...
It's been a long while since I have posted here. Years, in fact. This is typically where I turn when I am thinking a lot about my OCD and want an outlet for expressing my thoughts on my experience with the disorder. The current demands on my time make it a bit tricky to find much space for myself, much less to write about OCD, so even when I have found myself yearning to write, like now, I often turn to other tasks that seem more pressing. However, circumstances have brought OCD back into my life in a very real way, and I thought that posting some of my thoughts and experiences here, when I do make the time, might be helpful. I have a fascination with this disorder, both as someone who has suffered with it since childhood and as someone interested in it from an academic perspective. So, when increased stress and a lot of major life changes brought OCD back into my life in full force, I experienced that process with both horror and fascination. I have been amazed at how OCD can hi...
I am with you there. Ugh. I have a meeting in an hour, and it's a social event, and I'm feeling anxious, and my OCD is kicking up. I think the key is recognizing that this is OCD's mode of operation--to get you into a "figuring out" state of mind--and entangle us in getting a certainty about how to be motivated. Hang in there. The point is the flashes of freedom you've had--it's worth the bother, because you matter.
ReplyDeleteMotivation is a hard thing to get/find. Hope you get it back!
ReplyDeleteI struggle with motivation a great deal when I am in a bout of OCD. I still haven't mastered it fully, but one step at a time, one little thing at a time I'll do and I feel like I've accomplished the world... For instance, when I feel that my house is crumpling down around me, I'll do my dishes, or vaccuum the rug. It's not 100% perfection that is required, it's only progress.
ReplyDeleteI can relate with you there. Sometimes, I skip my shower and tooth-brushing. Gross, huh? Like you, I can't seem to see the point at times. But, more often than not, my head tells me that I need to get things straight. So, life goes on as usual.
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